In August 2023, I set out to self-publish Random Thoughts & F*cked Up Answers—not as a whisper, but as a headfirst plunge into the unknown. Then life, as it often does, handed me more chaos, more clarity and a few storylines I never auditioned for.
As of January 2026, the revamp is complete. I have relaunched this wee book as a sharper, wittier, and even more unfiltered version of the beast.
My story is far from a fairytale. I grew up with trauma—verbal and physical abuse that left its scars—but it also gave me the whetstone that sharpened my voice.
While writing this very piece, I experienced an appalling trespass upon the privacies of my life—proof that truth unsettles those who have built their power upon deception. Proving that what was meant to break me became the very thing that compels me to rectify and expose violations of our rights, while pursuing truths most are too burdened to confront—too uncomfortable to utter.
Random Thoughts & F*cked Up Answers is a reckoning wrapped in wit. It is for the silenced, the dismissed, and for the ones clawing their way out of the dark, ready to jump onto a wild ride of wordplay and the beautifully f*cked-up human experience.
My mission is to reach those who have walked through hell, skipped the pity party while refusing to live life in paralysis, choosing to live a life with purpose rather than being defined by their past. Whether your journey leads through personal growth or simply learning how to laugh at the absurdity of it all, my hope is to ignite an awakening fire within you.
For everyone else? Buckle up—you will not foresee the twists and turns coming your way.
With Soul, Scars and a Dash of Sassi-Tude,
Monique
EPUB File for Random Thoughts & F*cked Up Answers
These sporadic screenshots were taken from Google Books from my Samsung phone, but this file is designed to work with Apple Books, Aquile Reader for Windows-based laptops and other EPUB reader apps—your choice. Depending on your app, you can customize features such as font, text size, display settings and reading themes to make the experience your own. (~54, 960 words).
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MATURE WARNING 18+: This book dives into dark humor, drug references, adult themes, profanity and razor-sharp metaphors with poems intermingled throughout. It’s loaded with conspiracies, political satire, biting parody and unapologetic sarcasm—challenging norms with bold conviction.
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